black star

i am traveling among the stars

with desire

dwelling in the transitionary nothingness

asking for a vision

we have swapped places for now and your unconcerned trust sends me into collapse

i believe that as long as i have belief i am sustained

i am wrong

my belief is that i must manage God

again, i am wrong

questions of desire and time become preoccupations

even wind and blood are forgotten

the infinite void below me extends solace

                                          but i feel nothing

last night i forgot to consider the stars and i worry they might start falling

i began telling the truth, then i noticed you listening

i stopped

i understand that i once found this desirable

i cannot access that anymore

i have not tried to let go

yet

discussions of brain activity worry me

dormant truths

i extend my hand

satiation

visit me tonight

what wisdom can i find in this pursuit?

i saw one star fall when you told me how you felt

i don’t know what it means

i forgot

are you planning on leaving?

twins among twins

four in our presence

here

dissolving desire with sensibility

why should we even try?

dear hope

i caution you

the stars are not as inviting as you considered them to be

they squander your wonder with time spent waiting

they decline your questions and reject your needs

this is not a vision

this is not desire

this is not hope

this is simply a black star